"I know it’s unreasonable, but when I’m at my favorite band’s show, and they look out at the crowd I don’t want them to see me (us) as fangirls, because when I’m sitting in my room at 2:00 in the morning, headphones on and the music is so loud that all I can hear is the lyrics, the last thing on my mind is what these people look like. No, what’s on my mind is that maybe, if I keep this song on repeat, that if I recite the lyrics a million times I can hold off the anxiety attacks and erase the suicide letters for one more day. I know what they look like, but that’s not what I fucking like the band for. At the end of the day, the chord progressions are my lifeline and I’m done being seen as less of a fan, and my devotion to the band being written off as obsession, because of my gender. I’m a fan, not a fangirl.”
Thanks you guys.